“Pursuit of  happiness” [remember me a wonderful film, a film starred by Will Smith about the on-and-off-homeless salesman-turned-stockbroker Chris Gardner :p] . Definitely, you and I are very sure Everyone in this world want to pursuit a happiness in their Life.  No one want to friend with tears and sadness along his/her Life. No none want to life in poverty in this world. Everyone want to smile and lough.  But, sometime I wonder what a happiness actually is. Is it a same definition for everyone?

Happiness is a state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy [en, wiki]. I think not many people confute on the definition of happiness. But, How to pursuit those state of mind and feelings, everyone has his/her own way. One of my friend said that He felt happy since He have a very popular web blog with high page rank, although no much money on his hand. ” I am feeling mo re happy than them” He said while pointing some people with glamorous style nearby him.  My Another friend said that the ultimate happiness is when you can make money without any effort. You can buy a happiness with your money in your hand he advised me. My else another friend believed that happiness is when you have love in your hand, the ultimate happiness is when you are falling in love.

When I was endeavoring to finish my thesis. I thought that happiness was when I could successfully finished my thesis and got my M.Sc. degree. But, when I got it all, Should I redefine on what happiness is? So, happiness will evolve over and over wrestling with the time. Happiness is get together for those who alone. Happiness is fresh water for those who is thirsty. Happiness is enough money for those who live in poverty, Happiness is get a good job for jobless.  etc. , etc. and etc.  Then what actually the real happiness.

Finally, I contemplate my self. In my lonely room, no one besides me. In the middle of night. Thinking deeply insight what a happiness is.  Eventually, I realized that happiness is when I know better of my self and another happiness is when I can contribute to others. When I know better of me, it draws me to know better of God. I realized that I was so fragile, weak, empty, and need a great power. That a great power is no other but God. God, who look after me in each single time. God, who make I never feel lonely before, during, and after this temporary Life.  God, He is the source of the ultimate of pure  happiness.  and another happiness is found when I contribute not for my self, but when I contribute for others.

When I know better source of the ultimate of pure  happiness, there should be a happiness in each single of my time. Oh God, guide me to run a way to know better and better of you.

cakshon [@ ITS, 300309 17:10 PM]

Perhaps, some people thinks and assumes that One created a web blog tendency is no more than excessive narcissism effect. One trying to “show off”  via his/her blog. Is it true? May be Yes, May be No. Narcissism? actually,  What is Narcissism. Even, some feel proud to be Narcissist.  Narcissism describes the trait of excessive self-love, based on self-image or ego [en,wikipedia].

Then, is it wrong to be Narcissist? He he… It is fine to self-love, [because who will love you, even you do not self-love? ] . But, to be excessive self-love based on self-image is unhealthy. It is severe personality dysfunction or disorder personality. In my Religion, Islam, it is known as Riya’ [Arabic], and it is strictly prohibited  for each Muslim having this trait. On the contrary, it is suggested to each Muslim to be humble and not arrogant to others.

Does having a personal web blog always identically represent a Narcissism. It is too Hypocrite to claim that I am not Narcissist in my web blog.  Truly, I am proud when my web blog is visited, moreover it is commented. But, to be honest it is not my concern.

First, I just want to share  some sides of my life.  If I was in Good, may people could be inspired to be better than me. If  I was in bad, may people could learn from my stupidity. So, hopefully no one will fell in the same gorge like me and no one “reinventing the wheel” what I have done well. Second, I just want to sharpen my writing skill. Being an Inspiring Writer is dream of many people. But, to be real Inspiring Writer is a choice. It is just not for granted. But through a long journey of not trivial thorough processes.

Third, the most important thing, I want to make my web blog as personal knowledge management system. In this era of what people called knowledge based economy, every modern organization should aware and realize knowledge as the most important assets and resources better than other resources such as product and service. Knowledge awareness is the key successful factor for organization’s advantages and competitiveness in this highly competitive business world. Thus, I am as a smallest modern organization entity, supposed to be knowledge aware too, Isn’t it ? at least with my web blog, I can manage all my knowledge well, and I can retrieve it back easily, when I am forgotten.

This web blog also encourage me to share and transfer my knowledge, especially to transfer my tacit knowledge scattered in my brain and past experiences to be explicit knowledge. Then, others can grab and learn from it.  Nevertheless, I also can acquire and elicit knowledge from others too, especially the one commented in this blog.

At worst, I just want to make a personal branding from my web blog. Why personal branding? for inspiring and infecting others, [in my very humble opinion] I think  it is necessarily to have a good personal branding first. How’s One will believe on you, if you do not have good personal brand, even bad personal brand. Without good personal brand, one will despise you.

Needing a long time, years to have a good personal brand, but just needing a minutes to corrode it. And it is not easy to recreate a good personal brand. It is important and fine to have a good personal branding as long as address to betterment and driven by sincere desire of your nice heart. Never make a personal branding, but you are so hypocrite.  Only tell the white side of your Life and deny the black side is not good. One will damn you.  No body is perfect ! Every Body is accompanied with its strength  and weakness, but too focus in your weakness and forget your strength is also not good. Focus much in your strength to inspire others, but honestly realize and tell to your self that you are not so perfect.

Be an Inspiring Successful Guy  in a Humble Personality ! Down to earth ! Just like a star on the Water at night, it looks so contemptible, but actually it is so high in the sky. There should be failures and croppers prior to success. Life is not merely about Win and Lost. You are not Lost when you fail to win, but you are definitely lost when you are stop trying !

cakshon [@ UTP : March 21 9:50 AM]

Thanks you Allah…. Alhamdulilah.
I’m very happy, finally I won the “battle” to defense my M.Sc thesis In the oral presentation examination yesterday [170309]. Thus, unofficially I have graduated from my M.Sc. in Information Technology studies in 2 years from Computer and Information Sciences Department, University Technology of PETRONAS.

Although I have no well preparation, even I was feeling so nervous and not confident in the last minutes. But, suddenly I can do well on the spot. I was feeling lucky, I can deliver the presentation and answer all question well, and finally the examiners did not hesitate to grant me MSc degree. That’s what I mean with sometime I can not control myself. There is huge and great power over there control me. That’s the power of praying to Him, Allah. I prepared less, but prayed more for my thesis viva.

I would like to thank very much to everyone contributed to my thesis. Especially to my supervisor Dr Ass. Professor Ahmad Kamil bin Mahmood, Miss Noreen Izza Arshad [now, pursuing Phd in Melbourne University Ausy], and Mr Ahmad Izuddin Zainal Abidin [Now, pursuing Phd in Oxford University UK] for their nice fully-dedicated guidance during my Master studies.

I am deeply grateful to my Mom and Dad for praying me all days and nights. My brothers, sisters, mates, and friends for supporting and encouraging when I was down and burdened during my studies. I really appreciate it. On every grudge and every fight I miss you guys and girls.

In hours after finishing my thesis Viva, I expressed my happiness by sending email to my supervisor, and co-supervisors. I was very happy they all congratulated me. I got very touchy email from Ms Noreen Izza Arshad from Melbourne University Ausy. May I can share her email here:

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Dear Mukhlason,

I believe that 80% of the work is purely done by u and only u. 10% comes from the skills, other researchers, peers and supervisors. and 10% comes from luck, confidence, panels, love ones. And on top of all is the help from ALLAH - alhamdullilah.

I would like to congratulate u on your well done job, your persistence in doing work, your courage, your hard wok and your determination. You are my first MSc student and will always be remembered. Please…please do keep in touch.

Keep the high motivation in continuing research in any field, and hope our path can cross again, we can collaborate professionally in the future. All the best for your n future undertakings, and do not forget to send me your convocation pictures!!!!!!

wassalam.

~Noreen
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Alhamdulilah, thank you Allah for everything ! and now I have to move forward.
“Faidza Faraghta Fanshab Wailaa Rabbika Farghab [QURAN]”
When one thing was well done already, Then I should to be well prepared and do my very best for thing else, and Only to Him [Allah] we address all the hopes.

May Allah always gives all the very best for Us. Ammiin..
cakshon [@UTP 190309: 12:46 AM]